There's a special kind of exhaustion that doesn't just live in your body - it rents space in your soul. The kind that accumulates slowly, over years of being capable - a fixer - someone who keeps moving even when life hands out plot twists that nobody asked for. And now here we are: surgeries,... Continue Reading →
I can’t. I can. I wish. I live.
I feel guilty tonight. I don't know why. It's just a feeling of not doing...or being...quite enough. For myself. For my family. For my friends. I can't seem to put my finger on it. Can't quite get a grasp on the why of it all. I just - sometimes - can't. And I guess this... Continue Reading →
In the Famous Words of Bob Newhart, Just Stop it!
Or, if you prefer: So you messed up? Move on. Or, if you're feeling sophisticated: Mistakes are Universal: Find Peace and Growth Without Dwelling on the Past But seriously, Bob Newhart said it so much better in his iconic sketch on MAD TV in 2001. I shall now test the limits of my technical prowess... Continue Reading →
Where is the pause button?
It's 2024. We have an almost magical ability to press pause whenever we want - on videos, podcasts, phone calls, movies - whatever. Technology has given us this amazing control over how we engage with the world. In fact, if I wanted to, I could just tell artificial intelligence (AI) that I wanted to write... Continue Reading →
Rip Tide
I'm struggling y'all. Struggling to find balance. To find peace. In some ways, my life is more peaceful than ever...more sure...more solid. In others, I am confronted with frustrations I thought were behind me. I don't understand how it is so hard for the world to see what is right in front of them. I... Continue Reading →
The Five Bullshit Stages of Grief
Yeah, that's right. I said it. Grief is bullshit. So sue me. DENIAL. ANGER. BARGAINING. DEPRESSION. ACCEPTANCE. And it's a choose your own adventure situation...only you don't have any real choice in the matter. You think you get to pick what order the stages go in or whether or not (and how often) you'll be... Continue Reading →
A Year and Some Change
Today was a great day. I purposely eliminated everything from my schedule. I needed a day open. A day free of obligations. No social events, no phone calls or emails, no tasks that required doing - just me, myself, and I. Only, I haven't been alone. A few minutes ago, I watched Vince Gill and... Continue Reading →
The Gifts That Don’t Keep Giving
Let me tell you something I've learned. He may buy you really great presents but is he giving you the gift of speaking your language? Yeah folks. I am talking about the ol' love languages. This is not specifically about the book or the concept but it did just occur to me that what I... Continue Reading →