There's a special kind of exhaustion that doesn't just live in your body - it rents space in your soul. The kind that accumulates slowly, over years of being capable - a fixer - someone who keeps moving even when life hands out plot twists that nobody asked for. And now here we are: surgeries,... Continue Reading →
I can’t. I can. I wish. I live.
I feel guilty tonight. I don't know why. It's just a feeling of not doing...or being...quite enough. For myself. For my family. For my friends. I can't seem to put my finger on it. Can't quite get a grasp on the why of it all. I just - sometimes - can't. And I guess this... Continue Reading →
Is it me? Am I the drama? Hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.
Just a mish mash of quotes intended to evoke memories of memes and TikToks from days gone by? Perhaps. But looked at through the eyes of someone who has been labeled as too much, they resonate on a much deeper and emotional level. Too much. Too emotional. Too sensitive. Too outspoken. Too loud. Too direct.... Continue Reading →
Where is the pause button?
It's 2024. We have an almost magical ability to press pause whenever we want - on videos, podcasts, phone calls, movies - whatever. Technology has given us this amazing control over how we engage with the world. In fact, if I wanted to, I could just tell artificial intelligence (AI) that I wanted to write... Continue Reading →
The Five Bullshit Stages of Grief
Yeah, that's right. I said it. Grief is bullshit. So sue me. DENIAL. ANGER. BARGAINING. DEPRESSION. ACCEPTANCE. And it's a choose your own adventure situation...only you don't have any real choice in the matter. You think you get to pick what order the stages go in or whether or not (and how often) you'll be... Continue Reading →
Ode to Thundercat
There comes a time in every woman's life where you need a safe word. Come on people, get your mind out of the gutter. This is not THAT kind of safe word. But, for the record, my word for that is "squidbillies" because it both kills the mood and gets people to ask, "What the... Continue Reading →
Worth the Fight
Life is different now. As I sit here, just a few months shy of 45 (gasp!), I reflect back on the little girl that once was. Not the freckle-faced 8-year-old girl, full of mischief and fanciful dreams but the girl that was 25 ...and then 35 and now, almost 45. She's not gone, that girl.... Continue Reading →
How to be Cool? Stop telling me you’re cool!
In my longish list of pet peeves, this ranks in the top 5 without a doubt. Over the course of my career (er...life), I've learned one or two valuable things along the way. One of them is this. You know how to tell if someone is really Special Forces? They don't TELL you they're Special... Continue Reading →
What to do when there’s nothing left to do
You ever been in a situation where you feel like you've tried all the tactics, worn all the hats, rallied hard against your better judgment to try and do your level best to give someone every possible opportunity to just...do better? What about that feeling when you're confident in your assessment of a situation, realize... Continue Reading →
A Year and Some Change
Today was a great day. I purposely eliminated everything from my schedule. I needed a day open. A day free of obligations. No social events, no phone calls or emails, no tasks that required doing - just me, myself, and I. Only, I haven't been alone. A few minutes ago, I watched Vince Gill and... Continue Reading →